Boy oh boy!!

Well my little ray of sunshine is a little over three months old now and I tell you what he is growing up sooo fast!! He's laughing now and "talking" a lot haha. He makes me smile oh so much!! Here soon my husband Derek will be leaving for Alaska and I know that Derek will be missing a lot. Cause when he gets home I'll practically be leaving for my trip home to the states and I'll be gone for at least a month or so and when I get back Derek will be leaving again to go to school. It's crazy being in the military with a baby it's like they military member misses most of the child's life. Which I've already experienced being a military brat haha. But it's okay cause that's what video cameras and pictures are for right? I'm so ready for my family to meet Andrew!! My dad loves him so much already I'm just ready for Andrew to meet his poppa :) But until then many videos and pictures will fill the newsfeed of my Facebook lol.

Oh FUN!!

       Me oh my time has flown by!! My little boy is about to be THREE months old on the 4th of July!! It's hard to believe how fast he has grown up!! I am so truly blessed to have him in my life and be able to say that he is mine. <3

  

So a quick little update, we went to a friend's daughter's birthday party last Saturday and boy did Andrew have a blast!!

 Even though everyone was so much older then him he surly enjoyed all the ladies being all googly eyed to him and having their "aww he is sooooo cute" moments!! What can I say? He's a flirt hahaha. 

Especially with the Japanese women!! They all just all fall in love with him!! They love holding him at a restaurant that we go to called the Noodle House... It's so funny seeing them play with him and talk Japanese to them :)

It really amazes me to see just how big he has gotten already!!

We went to the bowling alley and his daddy helped him sit up like a big boy!! :)

      Then we went to the beach for the first time with him and it was so funny to see his expressions of the first time he put his feet in the sand <3 the water was cold so he didn't want to have his feet in it very long (but who would) lol.

And after all the craziness of this big ole world my baby boy just konked out in his car seat lol <3

                                           Yep that's my life and I totally LOVE it!!!

Baby Sign Language!!

Okay so I may be overly excited about this but I am going to learn how to sign language so that I can teach my baby when he gets old enough!! He will be 3 months old on July 4th (wow time flies by!!) and by the time he is 6 months old I will be able to teach him sign language!!! Yay!! I am super excited!! This means there will be less crying and less fussing cause he will be able to tell me what he wants by signing besides just whining or crying about it and I not know what he wants!! I'll be using a program called MySmartHands, they also have an app for my iPhone that will help me learn so that I can teach Andrew :) I am super stoked!!

Being a Mom!!

Being a mom you learn that....

~the love for your child grows everyday, even when you think you can't love them anymore then you already do~

~your parents weren't being mean when they gave you curfews they were just trying to protect you~

~no cuddle or hug can last too long~

~having spit up on your shirt is the norm~

~picking their boogers is something you do without a second thought~

~you can smell baby urine when walking into a room~

~a good nights rest is a thing of the past~

~when your baby falls asleep in you arms you learn to become a ninja so you can put him down without waking him up~

~breastfeeding your baby can be done with one eye open and even while your still asleep~

~when you hear someone mention your baby's name your ears magically become satellite interceptors~

~a smile from you baby makes your bad day turn around~

~getting out of the house on time no longer happens~

~no matter how short the trip, you always bring the diaper bag~

~you can cook, clean, and hold you baby all at the same time~

~taking a shower feels like winning a million bucks~

~doing you hair and make-up on a daily basis is out of the question~

~you shop more in the baby section then anywhere else (and its actually fun)~

~getting a new diaper bag is better then getting a new purse~

~and last but not least you learn that through all the dirty diapers, crying, and sleepless nights, this is your life and you wouldn't change it for the world~

My baby is growin!!

Today was Andrew's 2 month appointment!! He is growing very well. He is in the 21st percentile with his weight which is now 10.6 lbs and he is in the 25th percentile for his height which is a little over 22 inches!! I'm so proud of him :D !! He also got his shots today :( I cried of course haha. I can't wait to watch him grow more and more each day :)

Oy Vey!!

     This past weekend was just crazy!! It started out with a HUGE scare with my baby boy, he decided to be a big boy and learn to roll over at only 8 weeks old!! He ended up rolling over and putting his face in a pillow and when I heard a faint cry, I ran to him and saw him face down and I grabbed him up and his face was completely white, he was barely breathing, and he kept wanting to close his eyes. I started flipping out, I gave him mouth to mouth and I ran around the house just trying to make him stay awake, and I just didn't know what to do, I was totally in a state of panic. So I did the first thing that came to my mind and that was to call a very good friend of mine. She could hear the panic in my voice, I was hysterical, crying my eyes out and she just said for me to get ready and that she was on her way. Of course I basically just grabbed his car seat, diaper bag and ran out the door. Luckily her husband called 911 while she was on her way because when I tried calling from my house phone it said that I was not allowed to call from it and to go to my nearest pay phone. Stupid Japanese cell phones lol. Well the ambulances came, as well as fire trucks, and police. He was okay, but we ended up going to the hospital for the doctors to take a look at him. I ended up having a panic attack and nearly passed out from hyperventilating but my baby boy was okay. The doctor said that he was very glad that I was able to give what he called "rescue breaths" he also said that my son is advanced for his age but that some babies can start rolling over early and I guess my baby boy decided to be one of them. I am just lucky that he is okay. We then had a BBQ the following day, so we ran around cleaning the house, which was exhausting, but it was good having company over. That night I went to go watch a football game with a good friend of mine (I about froze to death haha) while Derek played COD with his buddy. Then yesterday we went to American Day!! It was nice to get out there and see a little bit of what we are used to, made me miss home a little more. We didn't stay long because we were soooo tired, but none the less it was fun. And last but certainly not least... My baby turned 2 months old today!!! I am so amazed by how much he has grown!! He is my heart!! I am so proud of him <3 .... We got more professional pictures done of Andrew and we LOVE them!!

 It has been a CRAZY weekend but that's totally my life right now haha. Now its time to get through this week and get to the weekend... Thursday is Andrew's 2 month check up so I am excited to see just how much he has grown... YAY!!!

It's Hard to Want to Try...

After several years that have gone by I got contacted by my Oma (German for grandma) about 2 weeks ago. It was great hearing from her but at the same time kind of hard. I kept wondering after all these years why does she want to contact me when she ignored me for so long. But of course I just talked to her through emails, giving her updates on my life, sending her pictures of her great grandson and my husband that she didn't even know either of them existed, and just kept it simple and small talk. Well today she wrote me telling me that she gave my mother my address and sent her pictures of me. She said that my mother cried of happiness when she saw the pictures and that she was going to write me. Now I haven't heard from my mother in a few years beings she has been in and out of jail due to drugs and just being plain dumb. She hasn't even tried contacting me. She knew where I lived, she had my number and everything and she never tried calling or writing or anything. But she is in my sister's life constantly, mainly because my sister is a druggie also. I have always been the black sheep of the family because I chose not to do drugs. The only time my mother spoke to me was when she was in jail when I was about 16 years old. Once she got out that one time (she's been in so many times) she stopped speaking to me and she just got right back into drugs yet again. Now my sister has a little boy, his name is Fabian and its sad to say it but I don't even know how old he is because I don't have any contact with my sister. But anyways, my Oma sent me a picture of my mother and my nephew Fabian...

 I can actually say that I cried when I saw this picture. I haven't seen my mother in years! My son has never met her, nor has my husband. But now all of the sudden both my Oma and her want to contact me? I tried for so long to get in contact with them and to have a relationship with them but they could have cared less about me. My mother wouldn't of even known what I look like anymore until my Oma sent her pictures of me and my family. I keep asking myself why should I even try anymore? It is so hard to want to try after how they ignored me for so long and how they just didn't care about me. I want my son to be able to have grandparents in his life as well as great grandparents, but its sad to say that I don't think that they deserve to have such a blessing in their lives. I miss having a so called family, but after crying and hurting for several years I have come to terms of not having a family anymore. So why give them a chance to hurt not only me but my family. It is so hard, I am trying to stay strong, I am just unsure of what to do at this point.

Can't Believe It...

    It is so very hard to believe that eight weeks ago today, I gave birth to my precious little boy!! And now he is so very alert, smiling everyday, and of course keeping me busy with all of the awesome diapers that he loves to leave presents in haha. This little boy steals my heart every moment of everyday!! I wish that I could share the joy that he gives me with all of my family and friends that I have back in the U.S.  It's moments like these that make living in Japan hard. Today is just one of those days that I am super homesick, and just want to be able to hug my family and friends and just show them my baby boy and let their hearts be warmed like mine is everyday.  My son is my world and I am SO happy that he entered my life only eight little weeks ago. :)